Revelations 2, My Confession

Greetings everyone,

well, something I need to confess here. I've taken some time away, from blogging and politically speaking out...

I needed to. I needed to get myself 'right', for years, I've run away and struggled, against what I knew all along to be true. I searched for every way possible to change so much,

so much anger at the insanity in the world and wanted so much, to stamp out as much as I could. Wanted so much to NOT be like all that I hated.

With all that has gone on just this past year, two years, so much unfolding and so fast, several things, kept coming to mind. At first, I tried to ignore them,

but my heart knew them to be true. I tried to compartmentalize it all into right, left, etc.,

its not even just about Islam anymore. My son, a small child, heard about the death threats to Jews,

and he asked me, "Why do they want to kill Jews?",

I became infuriated. Infuriated that my children are growing up in a world that Evil looms large, where even what is seemed to be right, is also poisoned with so much cruelty on many points.

And I remembered something, or it came to me,

"Be Still and Know that I Am Lord",

its a scripture, from the Bible.

The one thing that has come from all of this, is that, I have come around full circle to my first love,

yes, Jesus Christ. I am fully convinced, we are in the End Times, that we are seeing the prophecies come to pass, and that yes,

we are seeing the establishment of Anti-Christ, the Beast, all of it. Islam, is the tool of Satan,

no doubt in my mind. So much of the Bible is coming back to me, you see long, long ago I used to read it, all the time,

the reason there is Hate of Jews is simple,

Satan. Satan has hated God's people [spiritual and physical] and something Hannah Ardent said, that has often stood out for me,

about absolutism, moral relativism, etc., about the reason for anti-semitism, the spiritual reason/merged with the political, especially where the Revolutionary left [from France to current] is concerned,

is the destruction of the Ten Commandments. Get rid of Judaism, you get rid of the base/core of the Ten Commandments.

They hate Jews because they hate God, they hate the Light. They hate and attack lest they see themselves and have to repent.

No, I'm not crazy, or insane, I have not forsaken logic or reason, I have, come back to full circle, to my first love BECAUSE all the logic and rationale I sought, including Marxism

always, one way or another, led me right back, to the Bible. To me, its illogical to NOT believe, to not see,

its just So there. Right before our eyes, if we just open our hearts.

Its not just about the war against Islam people,

President Bush said it, very clear last night and I'm not a Bush fan,

Its THE WAR, BETWEEN

GOOD AND EVIL.

It is here, now. Someone said here that it wasn't about left or right or conservatives or liberals, and they were correct.

Because people from all walks of life and beliefs are seeing it, it is the WAR against Evil, I believe, the WAR against Satan, in its finality.

It takes me some courage and a swallowing of pride to come here, knowing I risk ridicule,

but that's O.K. I'm at peace with that, I held my son, told him,

our family, we are All JEWS, we are All Believers, and We Will Serve the Lord.

I will continue to fight, to stand, but I no longer fight alone or in my strength,

hard to explain, and I have a long way to go because my love grew cold, but God never abandoned me, even though,

I turned on Him.

Through the years of embracing Marxism [and not all the theories of Marx are bad, well intended, but I know now what the flaw is],

Leninism, Feminism [extreme], even studying other religions, the sciences, philosophy, you name it, I searched it.

I do NOT regret, any of my journey, because today, the Cross means more to me, I understand it like I have never before, in a way, that well,

lets just say, I'm hanging on to the Cross and I'm not letting go.

The flaw, is man's solutions will never work, no matter how well intended or good. NOT that we shouldn't strive or occupy till He comes, and He will come, the Son of Man will come and rest assured,

the false liar and Islam, will be crushed, the enemies of Israel, crushed,

not by our hands, but by God's.

and not that we shouldn't rise up and be courageous and stand strong and oppose all evil.

Be Still and Know that I am God, Psalm 46:10,

To close, I am still anti-religious and anti-legalism, still opposed to materialism, which I feel is The idolatry that has led this country astray, [which is predicted btw in the Bible, Revelations],

still against the ills of patriarchy and all the distortions, but, to the liberals out there,

what is seen as wise and good, isn't always what it appears to be. Dig deeper, into the left theories, this belief that multiculturalism, man's governments and tolerance to Intolerance and the banality of evil leading up to some world utopia,

is a lie. And it is the destruction that awaits...

people, are seeing it. Somewhere, in Jeremiah, when it says, in the end, the believers will resist, it also says the Resisters will resist, in reference to the Beast, etc.

People, are seeing it, it is no coincidence that the first thing Obama is doing is releasing the prisoners from Guatameno, (sic),

people were seeing it, the signs that is, during the election. To leave you with this,

to give you support, encouragement, to confront Fear, [btw, God does not give us a Spirit of Fear but instead Love, Power and a Sound Mind, Timothy but not sure exact scripture, my paraphrase there].

I was reading something last night, about Israel, I shall leave with this,

Be strong, Be faithful, and just know, no matter how dark or how strong 'they, the followers of Moloch, [and all the other Satanic demon gods] may seem,

God, is still in control, and the Victory, was won long, long ago.

As to all the Jew haters and chanters of ovens and holocausts,

God is going to smash you and toss you in the lake of fire,

but I am grateful, sometimes it takes, God allowing your enemies to rise up,

to lead us back to Him. For that, I am eternally grateful,

I'll put my heart and lot in with God/Christ,

philosophies and worldly wisdom be damned.

And the best thing about it, is that now, once again, I know, what it is to have peace and know that God is Love,

and that, trusting Him, I do not have to fear.

Thought I'd share it,

Love,

Natasha -p.s. btw, I will be changing some texts on this blog and deleting some posts,

NOT that I don't still believe in so much of the things I've written about, but after some serious reflection and inner change,

I know, that a lot of what I fought for, or, not What I fought for but HOW I was fighting,

was severely flawed. Not to say I'm taking some pacifist route, by no means, not in the least...even Jesus turned over the money-changer tables in the Temples. And NO, this blog is not going to turn into some right wing preaching blog, it still is going to confront the horrors and human right abuses plus the lies/propaganda of the left. I'm just changing the way I go about it,

so, this might take some time, most of the changes will just be in wording. What changes I make I will explain,

I will continue to speak against patriarchy, misogyny [including what is done in the name of Christianity, thats NOT going to change], against imperialism, unbridled capitalism which I strongly feel is a form of idolatry [love of money is the root of all evil],

and yes, I do believe, one can be leftist and Christian. There were during the Industrial and even before, even working with Marx [though they parted ways], Christian Socialists.

I just know, after so much thought and yes, recently a lot of prayer, something I used to do quite often, until I turned away and became, LOL, 'logical', [only to find, man's logic without the Holy Spirit is folly],

that God yes, works through secular as well as spiritual, even works through what many Christians would deem as unacceptable. Maybe because too many Christians are nominal, I don't know,

I believe its whats in our hearts, that matters. How we live, how we treat others,

in our own personal space. Regardless of what goes on around us, I do believe,

we will hold ourselves accountable, that's my belief. I'm entitled to it just as you are to yours,

I will no longer hide my faith or be ashamed...I've done the years of logic and reason and science and turning on my faith, a lot out of rebellion,

only to find, the answers, were there All along.

And in this day and age, I simply don't care anymore what any think...what matters, is what God/Christ think,

so, yes, there Is going to be a LOT of changes here. I have some cleaning up to do...

maybe, maybe through my being open and in my journey, God can use it, I've been a stumbling block, long enough...

now maybe, He can undo some of the damage I have done through the years I turned my back--He, however, never turned on me,

He is always there, knocking at our heart's door....

all we have to do, is open it.

Love,

Natasha